Today I had my dermatologist appointment for light therapy. I barely have psoriasis but it helps make it go away. I go back in another month for another treatment. Today we went 15 extra seconds. It's amazing to me that after a minute and 45 seconds it helps so much! Just by light!!!!
My parents are leaving far too soon (in my opinion) next week, and I have appointments galore. Ortho and the Treatment Center on Monday (going to be a long day!) and Ob/Gyn on Tuesday. Until then I am resting. We're going to see a movie tonight and then I'm going to continue watching Private Practice- season 1. I love library rentals!
I drove again this week and I must say I really, really miss having a car. I was so nervous after not driving regularly for 6 months but it's no problem. I am praying for a car so that I can start going to corporate prayer and see the kids more. I know, I know. I tend to get "ahead" of being sick, but honestly all of last year was spent in emergency rooms and not knowing what was next and while it is still like that on a smaller scale, I feel ready to start LIVING WITH JOY again. Only God knows the plan, but I can feel Him peppering my heart for a new season. Hopefully it won't be so brittle!
I am way nervous for the Treatment Center. Half of me is so used to being unheard by medical professionals that I am wondering if my heart will be broken again. I must trust, I must walk ahead, I must do it afraid.
I am definitely going to blog about what was prophesied over me during the conference. Right now it still belongs to me and Jesus.
Psalm 77
1 I yell out to my God, I yell with all my might, I yell at the top of my lungs. He listens.
2-6 I found myself in trouble and went looking for my Lord;
my life was an open wound that wouldn't heal.
When friends said, "Everything will turn out all right,"
I didn't believe a word they said.
I remember God—and shake my head.
I bow my head—then wring my hands.
I'm awake all night—not a wink of sleep;
I can't even say what's bothering me.
I go over the days one by one,
I ponder the years gone by.
I strum my lute all through the night,
wondering how to get my life together.
7-10 Will the Lord walk off and leave us for good?
Will he never smile again?
Is his love worn threadbare?
Has his salvation promise burned out?
Has God forgotten his manners?
Has he angrily stalked off and left us?
"Just my luck," I said. "The High God goes out of business
just the moment I need him."
11-12 Once again I'll go over what God has done,
lay out on the table the ancient wonders;
I'll ponder all the things you've accomplished,
and give a long, loving look at your acts.
13-15 O God! Your way is holy!
No god is great like God!
You're the God who makes things happen;
you showed everyone what you can do—
You pulled your people out of the worst kind of trouble,
rescued the children of Jacob and Joseph.
16-19 Ocean saw you in action, God,
saw you and trembled with fear;
Deep Ocean was scared to death.
Clouds belched buckets of rain,
Sky exploded with thunder,
your arrows flashing this way and that.
From Whirlwind came your thundering voice,
Lightning exposed the world,
Earth reeled and rocked.
You strode right through Ocean,
walked straight through roaring Ocean,
but nobody saw you come or go.
20 Hidden in the hands of Moses and Aaron,
You led your people like a flock of sheep.
