You're on a roll... exercise is almost easy... laughter is coming out of you in bursts as if you've just discovered what laughter is.... the "diet" is going okay... could be better, but not having proper funds makes it hard to eat that way... you do your best... tons of greens especially... there is hope... bright... burning... curling it's way from the top of your head and going all the way down to your feet... your heart is leaping with so much excitement... it's been a mere 3 weeks of treatment and finally there's that part of you that feels alive again....

and then you wake up so exhausted and realize you have to move slower. Don't push your body too soon, don't act like you can do 800 things everyday..... don't feel bad when you forget what your saying mid-sentence all of the time... don't be embarrassed that you no longer feel intelligent... every conversation a pressure because you sometimes can't focus, pay attention to what the other person is saying...

just be okay today. Be more than okay. Be a conqueror in the Spirit. You can do this. You can do this.

You are doing this.

And you are working harder then anyone possibly realizes... and it's worth it... this falling out after skipping up... because you did it. You are working hard to manage this illness and NO ONE is going to stop you. No judgement, no lies, no pain, no frustration.

You will get better.