I have been in a flare for the last several days and have chosen to spend the last 3 days resting. My viewpoint of rest is not where I'd like it to be just yet, for I still do loads of laundry, dishes, vacuum, etc. I am getting better! This morning I read scripture and spent time with Jesus. Yesterday I relaxed between chores, and the day before I spent 6 hours writing. Baby steps.

I am debating whether or not I can hack the exercise bike as it has been 10 days since I have done it. That was the last time I went to physical therapy. 2 days ago I did walk to the mailbox which is very far from the apartment, so that counts. I am considering starting at 5 minutes again and working slowly back up to 20.

I have upped my thyroid medication (Liothyronine) from 1 to 3 pills and go up to 4 pills per day on Tuesday. I have also increased the Vitamin D 1000 up by 1000 every week. Right now I am on 4000, and on Wednesday I will increase to 5000. The ultimate goal for now is to get to 10,000 per day. The reason is that to kill off the candida and bacteria it needs to progress slowly. If I take too much too fast then it results in me feeling worse.

I have had no need to even try the xanax. I have had moments of anxiety but nothing that I could not handle.

I have not been so good on my diet. For one I lack the funds to buy the proper organic, gluten free stuff. When I have my food stamps I am good as gold, but it only comes once a month and $200 does not get me very far. I have also been wanting sugar something fierce. BIG mistake. The moment I let that first taste hit my tongue, the craving only increased. It was explained to me that is because eating sugar is basically feeding the candida. You give the candida just a smidge and it goes haywire and starts to demand that you eat more and more sugar. I am making the decision to stop once and for all right now. You, my friends, are the ones to hold me accountable! ;)

My next fibro appointment is on May 6th. I've been doing better energy wise with the medication, but I still have the all over malaise. The pain is the same. It comes and goes whenever and wherever it feels like it.

The decision to cancel my physical therapy sessions has brought some peace. No stress over gas money, no stress about pushing too hard. I will miss it. I liked the environment, the interaction with strangers, and the feeling of accomplishment but I don't need a building or a team of people to tell me to ride an exercise bike. I can do it on my own and I shall.

No more donations have come in. I find that to be discouraging but it is what it is. God will supply my needs.

I am off to check the mail and hopefully get on that bike!

Cheerio!